While my mom and I sat in darkness last night in yet another load shedding session, we re-composed the epic Simon and Garfunkel hit, Sounds of Silence and applied it to our country... It was also inspired after reading the hideous list of corruption.

Hello darkness my old friend, 
Eskom's done its thing again... 
Because the ANC is still stealing
Screwing the country uuuup agaaaaain
And the money that is pouring down the drain
Still remains
Causing the sounds 
Of violence.

In restless dark we walked alone
Narrow lighting from our phones
'Neath the halo of Van Riebeeck's dream 
Lost our way in the corruption stream
When our eyes were blighted by the flash of a Zuma light
Who stripped our rights
Launched on the grounds, of heartless.

And in the naked light I saw
Ten million people maybe more
People talking without speaking
People hearing without listening
People writing songs 
That voices never share
No-one dares
Disturb the mounds of finance.

Fool said I you do not know
Silence like a cancer grows
Hear these words that they might reach you
Free your mind that you may see it too
Let your words like thunder roll and fall

And echo the voice of people

And the people bowed enslaved
To the not on god they made
And the sense flashed their warnings
In the words of the load shedding
And the sign said the words of the masses are written on the e-toll walls
And township stalls
We're bullied 
Into the sounds of silence...

After I took all the photos of the maize at Pick n Pay today, I decided to ask random people in the store if they knew what GMO meant.  I asked about 10 different people, young, old, white, black, male, female, single, couple and family. 

Nine said they had no idea.  One guy said "it's about additives, that additives give people allergies so they take the GMO additives out so people don't get allergies".  Not quite, no.

What dawned on me today, is that even though maize is now labelled; people don't actually read labels nor have a clue what GMO's are.  "May contain GMO's" is also misleading. One needs to err on the side of caution, and just avoid anything that refers to GM's until there is true transparency in the industry.   It's going to take an epic public relations / marketing effort to educate people on what it means in their lives. 

Explaining to people what GMO's are in layman's terms is a very hard thing to do.  My own journey took 6 months before I even vaguely started to unravel it.  Most people don't have the time, energy or inclination because they're just too tired and too hassled.

 In the meantime, Monsanto is laughing the whole way to the bank.  This has to change.

The Logical Song (Supertramp) is my all time favourite song.  Of all the music in this world that I love, that one song has followed me for decades.  For as long as I can remember, way back to my teenage years, this song has been my mantra.  I sang it with so much bitterness and anger for so long.  Any time anyone ever asked me what my favourite song was, this has been it.

Then a couple of days ago, I was driving down the road thinking about the awakening world and all I've learnt over the past few months, and this song popped into my head.  

And I had a moment of pure clarity.  

This song was about waking up, understanding, seeing. Reminding me! All my life I've been singing this song over and over and over without truly understanding why it affected me so much. Now that I am wide awake, I see.  I listened to it again tonight, over and over and over again. And I see...  

We may think we get things, think we're awake - but in these moments of pure clarity you realise you were not, not really; until now.  There were stirrings all along the way, messages coming at you from every angle, but you would not see.  So when your eyes really start to open ..... oh the synchronous magic; and the pure love.  

Finally, I am finally actually starting to get it.  

We are living in a truly wondrous time in humanity's existence.  Can you feel it too?

I want more.  Show me more.  I'm ready.

There is no way in hell I would agree to one of these units being installed in my house.  Read very carefully what they are saying here.  There is a whole lot of marketing waffle about how clever this system will be - the part you need to be wide awake on is : 

"These meters will help minimise electricity consumption such as load management, shift electricity loads away from peak periods and restrict customers' electricity use. Specific loads can be switched on or off based on usage". (paraphrased) 


Read between the lines here - they will be able to cut you off whenever they feel like it and there won't be a damn thing you can do about it.  Plus they will be able to adjust what you pay based on what you're using whenever they feel like it.  Think we're getting insane increases now?  Just wait till all these meters are installed - they will have you by the balls.

You need to be thinking about ways to get off the grid, not get pulled deeper and deeper into it.  

And if you think this is just another conspiracy theory - a woman was arrested in the States in January this for thinking for herself and refusing to have a smart meter installed.

So NO to a smart meter!!!  

Who do you think you are? Just a meat stick stuck on earth for one lousy life before you tank and get put 6 feet under?  What if you're not?  I'm sure most people can agree that we have a mind, well, most people anyway ;-); and a body.  But what about your soul?  Have you never stopped to think about this?  I believe in my soul implicitly.  

Most wisdom points out that our souls are all powerful and all knowing, containing all the vast information of the Universe from all ages.  Can we even vaguely begin to comprehend what that means?  If you're lucky enough to tear yourself away from the sports, politics, religion and pop culture designed to distract us, you might actually get a glimpse of your soul.  

I've been lucky enough to get that tiny glimpse into my own soul three times!  At three totally unexpected times.  They happened many years ago, but I've never forgotten the experience.  I didn't need any proof from anyone about anything in those moments.  I just knew that we go on - and on and on and on.  That there was just so much more to all this. I was instantly freed from all the religious dogma I'd been subjected to my whole life from those moments on. It will be extremely difficult for to explain the feeling I had, I don't believe we have the words to describe such things.  One has to feel it for yourself to really understand.  My sincerest wish is that everyone on this planet has such an experience even once in their lives.  The magnitude of the soul is incomprehensible to me, the wisdom of all ages in there.  We don't have to learn anything, we already know it all, we merely have to remember it!  I believe we are most afraid of our own power.  That we simply can't believe that we have the knowledge and creative power of all ages right inside of ourselves.  We don't think we're worthy, do we.  But we are dear ones, we are.  Every one of us.

The mind, oh the mind.  It gets us into so much trouble.  We over-think things, over-analyze every little event, cripple and torture ourselves with worry and fear.  We forget that we are a three part being, so we busy ourselves with so many things that just don't matter.  Have you never wondered what it is your soul wants you to do?  Our minds are ruling the roost for the most part.  Have you tried to still your mind and listen to your soul? I battle to do that, just so busy busy busy aren't we...  But even though the soul is all powerful and all knowing, the mind manages to block it out and do its own thing.  We totally under-estimate how crazy powerful our minds are!  The things we can think up, invent!  We can be absolute geniuses when we "put our minds to it".  Or we just see what we want to see, not what's actually happening.  Knowing that your mind has the power to block out the soul means it's not to be trifled with, that it commands respect and understanding.  How often do we do that?  We fill our minds with meaningless drivel when we are capable of so much more.

And then the body.  The magnificent human body.  Tall, short, thin, fat, pretty, ugly, green or orange, doesn't matter - these machines are engineering feats that have never been duplicated in totality.  We abuse the hell out of our bodies; we poison them, burn them, stab them and they carry on going for years and years and years.  They carry around our minds and souls on this planet and protect us from harm.  We cannot discount how utterly amazing each and every single one of our bodies is and how strong they are.  Even when you've been abusing your poor body for decades, the smallest positive changes to take care of it manifest almost immediately.  Our ability to heal ourselves is surely unmatched in the animal kingdom.  And when our bodies perish, they return to the soil to continue the circle of life. Our bodies deserve much better respect than what we've been giving them.  

How can you not be totally amazed at the earth experience?  At the absolute power of your mind, body and soul?  When you remember that you are a three part being, you will be able to harness your greatness and do tremendous things.  Nurture your body, enrich your mind, and feed your soul.  All three are powerful, and you are all of them.

Roller-coasters have got nothing on waking up.  After reading countless online articles, watching endless Youtube documentaries, reading books like a crazy person, you have to just stop and take a breath.  You get pulled in 20 different directions and end up on the verge of total emotional collapse with the enormity of everything that's going on.  

One thing I've discovered, is that I'm not having much fun.  Well that sucks.  One benefit of staying completely oblivious to your surroundings and predicament is that ignorance is bliss!  You can go out, have parties, go away, eat, love, live and pray with gay abandon, without a care in the world, feel the breeze on your face and just think "man, life is good". I haven't had that for a really long time now that I think about it. 

It's hard to have fun when you've started to see how the world fits together; how people are needlessly suffering; how our environment is being destroyed; how your friends and family are so sucked into the system and so far from getting out of it.  Realising that some people don't actually want to be woken up thank you very much, that they are quite happy where they are.  It always comes down to one thing - you can't change the world, you can only change yourself : 'May I find the grace to accept the things that cannot be changed, the courage to change the things which should be, and the wisdom to know the difference'. And have some fun in the process please!!!

I've also noticed that I am always stuck on negative thoughts - even more so since I really started waking up. (And you thought I was such a positive person). Yet it's really really hard to find positive things to say, but it's so important to get to that place; for my own sanity, never mind anyone else's.  All the research just paints a picture of doom and gloom and I guess that's part of the process.  We are so desensitized to violence now that things have to be really shocking before we take notice. 

Once you've done all the research, and see what these evil corporations are actually doing to us, it's time to move on and just find a peaceful alternative.  It's awfully tempting to want to just walk away and I think many people do because it's just so overwhelming.   We can't do that - I can't do that.  I feel like I've wasted my life until now, it makes me kinda sad really (and angry!).  

It's not too late though; I can change things, and I plan to.  It's time to conquer my fears and move forward. The only place to find peace, answers and your own truth, is to look inside yourself.  That will be my next challenge; to really go within so I don't go without. It's a very scary thing....

Four weeks leave over December after a very stressful year in the IT industry.  I had to find something to do or risk not resting one minute during my leave.

Random web surfing lead me to earth-friendly home building called cobbing!  I fell in love immediately. Why are we not building all our houses like this?  It appealed to my inner hobbit!  A new hobby was discovered.

A month later down the proverbial rabbit hole, I gathered a ton of research on everything from earth houses, to perma-culture, to wildlife management.  I figured that if I wanted to know things like this, there must surely be others wanting to know it.  So this website and this blog was born!  Who knows where it will lead to.